Monday, August 30, 2021

Chapter 1: Chopping Down Trees

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In the morning, Finn worked on the door.  Catherine and Carlyle helped to hold the wooden planks for him as he hammered in the nails.  Margaret cooked breakfast.
Margaret came over every now and then to check on their progress.  “How are you coming?” she asked.
“We’ll have it as good as new,” said Finn.  “The steel beams weren’t damaged, so we can use them again.  It’s just a matter of hammering the new blanks into place.”
“I wish you weren’t going down to the forest,” Margaret said.  “Last night’s attack was a big one.”
Finn looked up from his hammering.  “You know how much I hate leaving you and the children here alone,” he said.  “But I have to go.  We need the supplies.  And if I have to go, this is the best time to do it.  We put up a good fight last night.  They always stay away for a while after they’ve been hurt.”
“How long do you think they’ll stay away this time?” asked Carlyle.
Finn looked at Carlyle and Catherine.  “You two are old enough to try to work these things out for yourselves,” he answered.  “How often do they usually attack?”
“It usually depends on how well we fought the previous time,” said Catherine.  “Maybe about once every two months?”
“After last night, I’d say we bought ourselves two months at least,” Finn said.  “But we’ll still want a strong door.  Now, help me nail this plank into place.”
After the door was built, Finn, Catherine and Carlyle moved back the boulders, took the table down, and then lifted up the new door and put it in place at the entrance to the cave.  Finn then fastened it to the side of the cave wall using rope hinges that were tied to various features of the cave wall. 
Finn stood back and admired his handiwork.  “There,” he said proudly.  “I’d like to see them try to knock that one in.”
“Be careful what you wish for,” said Margaret quietly.
Finn grumbled.  “The morning’s half gone already,” he said.  “And we were supposed to chop the wood before Brian gets here.”
“There should still be plenty of time,” Margaret said.  “And I’ll have your food waiting when you get back.  Now be careful.  Don’t strain yourself.”
Finn simply growled in response. He got his sword down from the cave wall.  It was still in its sheath, and was tied to an old rope that made a shoulder strap, so that Finn could carry the sword across his back while he walked.  Next, Finn took his ax down from the cave wall.  “Come on, then,” he said to Catherine and Carlyle.  “I’m going to need your help with this.  You know what to do.” 
They stepped outside.  There was a light covering of snow over the mountainside.  It seldom snowed heavily in the mountains, but a light covering of snow was not unusual, especially in the mornings.  But it was the wind that made the mountaintop so cold. 
Catherine rubbed her hands together to warm them up. Carlyle cupped his hands around his mouth and blew into them to keep them warm.  
“Come on then,” said Finn, pushing past them and walking outside.  “You two will warm up once we start the work.”
Carlyle and Catherine both went to get the cart.  They each grabbed one of the shafts and tugged.  The wooden wheels were stuck in the frozen ground, so it was difficult to get the cart moving.  The cart rocked forwards and backwards slightly until they gave a final heave and the wheels broke out of their rut and the cart lurched forward. 
The journey was downhill, so once the cart was moving, the challenge was to make sure it didn’t get away from them and roll down the mountain on its own.  They moved quickly to try to catch up with Finn, but they also braced their backs against the front of the cart as they led it down the slope.
Finn stopped walking as he got to the first few trees.
The mountain, although it was rocky, was also covered with trees, and it was from these trees that Finn had his living.  Finn stood next to a tall pine tree.  He unstrapped the sword from his back and laid it on the ground.  In the mountains it was always useful to keep a sword nearby, but it wasn’t always convenient to have it strapped onto your body when you were doing work.
Finn then knelt down in the snow beneath the tree.  He raised his hands up before the tree in supplication.  In a loud voice, he cried out to the tree, “Forgive me, for what I am about to do.  I must do this to survive.  If there are any spirits or other beings who have made this tree their home, tell me now in order that I may not harm you unknowingly.”  
Carlyle and Catherine looked at each other.  They always felt slightly embarrassed of their father in these moments.
After a suitable pause, Finn continued.  “If there are any spirits or nymphs in this tree, I beg your forgiveness.  I declare that I am ignorant of any beings who live in this tree.”
The ritual then completed, Finn stood to his feet. 
“Why do you always do that?” asked Catherine.
“You’ve asked me that before,” said Finn, as he gripped the ax in both hands and carefully planted his feet.  “And the answer is the same thing I told you last time.  You always need to be careful of the woodland spirits.”
“But nobody else does it,” said Carlyle.  “None of the other woodsmen in the mountains ever do it.”
Finn swung the ax, and struck the tree.  The first hit barely cut through the bark.
Finn grunted.  “None of the other people in these mountains know what I know.”
He swung again.  This time with more force.  The ax head buried itself in the wood, and Finn had difficulty pulling it out again.  He had to wiggle the handle back and forth to free the blade.
“Why do you know so much?” asked Catherine.  
There was a cynical tone in her voice.  Ever since they had become teenagers, they had started to question Finn more and more.
Finn noticed the tone, and snapped back.  “Because I’ve lived a long life.  And because I’ve lived in a lot of different places.”  He swung the ax again at the tree.  “And believe me, if these yokels up here in the mountains knew anything, they would do what I do.”  Finn knew his children were beginning to doubt him, and it worried him.  He paused from the chopping to point his finger at them.  “Don’t listen to what anyone else up here says.  You never harm a tree without first checking to see if any spirits are living in it.” 
Finn went back to chopping.  Catherine and Carlyle exchanged another glance.
“And best not to harm a tree at all if you can avoid it,” Finn said.  “The only reason I’m doing this is that we need more supplies.”
After a couple minutes, Finn stopped chopping again, but this time it wasn’t because of his children.  His hands were having trouble gripping the ax.  It was frustrating growing old.  He still had plenty of strength left in his arms, but the aches in his hand and his fingers were becoming worse. He dropped the ax to the ground, and tried to massage away the pain by grabbing one hand with the other, and rubbing his thumbs against his palms.  Finn’s hands were wrinkly and splotchy.  And gaunt.  The skin was tightly wrapped around bony knuckles and enlarged veins.  
Carlyle took a step towards him.  “Father, let me swing the ax,” he said.
But this show of filial piety did not please Finn.  “I can do it,” he growled.  “I’m not old and useless yet.”
“I know,” said Carlyle.  “But I can also do it.”
“Your job is to do the sawing,” said Finn.  “I’ll handle the chopping.”
The sharp tone of Finn’s voice made it clear that the discussion was over.  Carlyle stepped backwards to where he had been standing.  After a minute, Finn picked up the ax again.
Finn’s hands were becoming his weak point.  And although he tried to hide it, his knees were also beginning to get sore frequently.  But overall, Finn had aged fairly well.  The muscles on his arms and chest were still big, and their outline was noticeable even through the thick shirt that he wore.  His hair had turned white years ago, but it still looked full and healthy.  His face looked worn and withered, but that was normal in these parts.  At least the skin around his face looked taut instead of saggy and wrinkled.  
The thing that made Finn unique was that he didn’t have a full beard, like most of the other men in the mountains did.  This wasn’t entirely a matter of choice--for whatever reason, Finn’s face just wasn’t predisposed to grow breads.  There was some prickly white stubble that came around his chin and parts of his cheek, but it was never enough to grow a full beard.  Because the scattered whiskers looked ridiculous when they grew too long, every few days Finn shaved his face.  In between those days, he just had rough looking stubble, like he did now.
“Stand clear,” Finn said loudly.  Carlyle and Catherine moved behind Finn as the tree toppled over.
“Right,” said Finn.  “The saw’s in the cart.  You two know what to do.  Make sure the logs are long enough that I can trade them, but short  enough so that they’ll fit in the cart.”
Finn trudged down a little ways further down the mountain, and then knelt on his knees in front of the next tree.  He repeated his ritual, raising his hands again, and yelling up to the tree.  “Forgive me, for what I am about to do.  I must do this to survive.  If there are any spirits or other beings who have made this tree their home…” 
While Finn was still yelling, Carlyle walked around to the cart to get the saw out, and brought it back to Catherine.  Catherine grabbed the handle on one side, and Carlyle grabbed the handle on the other.  And then, pulling back and forth, they started sawing through the tree.
Once the air was filled with the sound of Finn’s ax chopping again, and Carlyle was sure that Finn could not hear them, he spoke.  “Where did you go yesterday?”
Catherine glanced up from the sawing to fix Carlyle with an annoyed look.  “What business of it is yours?”
“You left the group,” said Carlyle.  “You wandered off all by yourself.  I didn’t see you again until dinner time.  I didn’t want to ask you in front of mother and father, but…”
“There were things I wanted to see.”
“It’s dangerous to wander off by yourself like that.”
“I know these mountains as well as you do.  I can take care of myself.”
“Where did you go?” Carlyle insisted.
“That is my concern.  If I go off by myself, it is because I do not desire company.  If I do not tell you where I have gone, it is because you do not need to know.  Besides,” Catherine added, “I grow bored with you and Alfred and all the other boys and all the fighting and wrestling that you do.  I couldn’t care less about who wins which fights.”
“The other girls don’t seem to mind watching.  Besides, what else do you propose we do with our time?  If you have an activity you would like the group to do, you can feel free to--.”
“The group bores me.”
“Okay, but you can’t wander off by yourself like that.  It’s dangerous.  You could run into bears, wolves, goblins, witches, vampires--”
“The vampires can’t come out during the day,” said Catherine.
“Fine. Any of the rest then.  You remember what happened to Jack.”
“I remember.”
“Well be careful then.  I don’t want the same thing to happen to you.”  Catherine looked up again.  “I mean it,” said Carlyle.  “I’m not trying to be difficult, I really--.”
“Stand clear!” Finn shouted out.  Catherine and Carlyle ran several steps to the right side of the mountain slope while a second tree fell to the left.
Finn looked with disgust at how little progress Carlyle and Catherine had made.  “We’ve got two trees on the ground,” he said.  “And you’ve barely started to saw that one.  I don’t know what you two are chatting about, but you can talk later.  Concentrate on sawing for now.”
“Yes, Father,” they both answered.
“I need to get the logs loaded in the cart before noon,” said Finn, “because it will take me all afternoon to get down to--.”  
Finn stopped talking as he saw a large brown bear lumbering up the side of the mountain.  The bear saw the humans at the same time that they saw him.  The bear stood up on his hind legs and let out a loud roar.
Finn dropped his ax immediately and scrambled up the mountain to where he had left his sword.  He quickly drew the sword out of its sheath, and held it in front of him.  “We are armed,” Finn shouted at the bear.
“I wish for no trouble,” said the bear.  “I am simply returning to my home.”
“Go in peace, then,” said Finn.
The bear dropped back to four legs, and continued lumbering up the mountainside.  Finn kept the sword raised and kept his eyes on the bear until the bear disappeared out of sight.  
Once the bear disappeared, Finn turned back to his children.  “Right, let’s not spend any more time out here than we have to. The sooner we get that cart filled, the sooner I can take off.  Get back to the sawing, and I don’t want to hear any more talking until the cart is full.”

Sunday, August 29, 2021

What This Is and Why I'm Doing It (Unfinished)

Several months ago (back in February), I tried to write an updated description of what exactly this story is, and why I was doing it.  Because I have a tendency to be long-winded, that blogpost turned into a long confessional about all my ups and downs as a writer since childhood.  And I didn't ever finish it.

At this point, I'm not sure I will finish it.  So I might just publish this unfinished for the time being.  (I may come back and finish it someday in the future, but for the time being I'm just going to publish it unfinished.)

My first attempt to write the post is here:

An update, of sorts.
When I started this in 2018, I got about 6 chapters end, and then stalled out.
For a few reasons.  One is that I wasn't enjoying it.  Two is that it wasn't any good, and I was feeling frustrated and embarrassed about how bad the story was turning out.  Three is that I had written myself into what I felt was a dead-end with the war with the Bear King plotline.  

But actually, for all that, I never intentionally stopped writing.  What happened was the usual thing.  I had made myself a commitment to write for 15 minutes every day.  I had one day when I was particularly busy, and so I missed that one day.  Having missed one day, it seemed no harm to miss two days before I started the habit up again.  And then I allowed myself to miss 3 days, and 4 days, and pretty soon a few weeks... et cetera.

In other words, I never intentionally stopped writing this story.  I always meant to get back into it when I was ready.  Even with all the frustrations I was experiencing, I really wanted to continue the experiment with having a continuing story on the go.  I had enjoyed this hobby when I was a teenager, and although my teenage stories were never any good either, I enjoyed the feeling of being in control of my own story,  and the amusement I felt at discovering the story as I went along.  It's one of the things from childhood that, over the years,  I've come to regret losing in the transition to adulthood, and I've wanted to recapture it.

Finally in February of this year, I decided to started again.  I decided to just discard the War with the Bear King chapters that I had written a year and a half before,  and start the story again fresh from chapter 5.

And so, since 

My second (and much longer) attempt is here:

When I first started this blog a couple of years ago, I wrote up an explanation at the time about what this was and why I am doing it.   (To which I later added an addendum).  But I've become dissatisfied with that explanation, so I want to try once again.  

The short version is that this blog is an attempt to return to my childhood hobby of writing stories solely for my own amusement.  

In the longer version that follows, I'm going to try to sort through exactly why I'm doing this, and whether or not I'm any good at it, and whether or not I even enjoy writing, or just think I enjoy writing.
The much longer version, for anyone who cares, is as follows:

As a kid, I loved making up stories.
A lot of kids do, of course, so I'm not sure if that makes me unique.  

Most of the stories I made up were in my head--as a kid, I used to have some sort of epic story constantly going on in my head, which I used to entertain myself before bed, on long car rides, during church sermons, et cetera.  (Again, I know this is not unique to me.)

But although I loved making up stories, I was never sure if I loved writing stories.  Writing was always laborious.  And time consuming.  (It took me so long to write down on the page what I could visualize in my head instantly.)  
Second and third grade is when I developed enough literacy to write down my stories, but I could never decide whether or not I actually liked writing.  I still can't decide, to be honest.  I like thinking about my stories.  I like planning out my stories in my head.  I like reading over my stories after I've written them.  But the actual act of writing itself has always been a love-hate relationship.  Some days I can get into a good rhythm and have fun writing, but more often I find it painful--it's hard to focus myself, it's hard to translate what's in my head into words, and it takes so long. 
Plus, there's all the self-doubt that always comes with writing.  Whenever a story is in your head, it's still in a pure and wonderful form.  Whenever you translate it into written words, then you immediately start criticizing yourself--is that any good? Does that make sense?  Would another person want to read that?  Maybe my story isn't so good after all?

All of which is to say: I've never quite made up my mind whether I actually like writing stories, or whether I just like the idea of writing stories.
This was a question that used to bother me as a kid, but as a kid I assumed that it would be something I would naturally sort out once I reached adulthood.  Now, here I am in my 40s, and I still find myself wondering whether or not I actually like writing stories.

My history as a writer (such as it is) is as follows:
My second grade teacher was very encouraging of me, and often praised my stories in her class.  (This story in particular).  This gave me the self-image of a writer for many years afterwards--even though no subsequent teacher of mine was ever so impressed.  Indeed, the older I got, the less praise I got from my writing teachers.  By high school, I noticed that it was other students who the teachers were singling out for praise and encouraging to keep writing.  My stories only got criticism.
This was discouraging of course.  And it was the seeds of doubt that began to grow more and more as time went on. But at the same time, by this point I had carried along a self-image of a writer all through childhood, and it was not something to be overturned so easily.
I told myself that the reason my high school teachers couldn't appreciate my writing is because my writing style didn't match the assignment criteria.  We were always assigned to write short stories in high school, and I could never think in short stories.  All the stories I imagined were always sprawling long epics about huge wars or long journeys.  I couldn't write short stories, and I knew it.  But if my high school teachers could see the longer stories that I was working on at home, maybe they would be more impressed by that.  (This was a tentative belief even at the time--even as a high school student I had doubts about how good my stories were.  But it was at least a slight hope.)

All through childhood, ever since second grade, I was always always in the act of writing down some story or other. 
Several years ago, I posted the surviving stories (the stories that hadn't gotten thrown out or lost over the years) on a blog: http://literaryendeavors.blogspot.com/  There are a handful more stories from my childhood that I can remember that didn't survive the test of time, and I wrote about them in my addendum "The Lost Works".  But there's even more stories that I can't remember--or can only remember only in the vaguest of terms.  Most of these stories I would spend several days thinking about, attempt to write a few pages, get discouraged when the writing wasn't going very well, and then switch to something else.
(Around the ages of 11 and 12, during the long summer vacations from school, I used to wander up and down our yard on summer afternoons, imagining stories that I believed I would get around to writing later.  My mother used to see me outside daydreaming, believe I was bored and in need of occupation, and would offer me chores.)

The story I spent the most time on between 4th and 5th grade was Smart Wolves, which unfortunately I didn't save.  But I do have a lot of memories of working on it.  Many of my memories was, once again, about the disconnect between thinking about the story and planning the story.  I would spend all day at school thinking about all the things I wanted to write in my story, but then find when I got home from school that I usually lacked the self-discipline to get more than a few words down.  In the end, I never finished the story.
All through middle school, I started a bunch of stories, but never finished anything.

In high school, however, I developed the self-discipline to stick with one story over a long period of time. 
Throughout my high school years, I spent my time working on an epic fantasy/Sci-Fi story.  This I've also posted on a blog several years ago: http://fabulaestory.blogspot.com/
It's actually about 5 different stories that evolved during the writing.  I made some attempt to explain my writing process and thought process that lead to the very convoluted plot in a series of posts here.  But what was notable for me is that I stuck with it all the way through high school.
Of course, I had the usual struggles with forcing myself to write.  I made a rule that I had to type ten lines of text every day.  (By this point, personal computers had become affordable, and our family had a computer that I could write the story on--which also helped me stick with.)   Those ten lines were usually a struggle for me to get through--it was difficult to force myself to sit at the computer to write, and then, once there it was difficult to get ten lines.  Once I finally got to ten lines, I would breathe a sigh of relief, and promptly get off the computer and go do something else. 
(I was fortunate in that the Internet didn't exist back then.  If I had had the modern Internet back then, I believe I probably would have turned on the computer with the intention of writing something, then gotten distracted by Youtube videos, and then 2 hours later turned off the computer having gotten nothing accomplished.   I can barely manage the distractions of the Internet now at my age--what chance would I have had at 14?)
There were also several times over high school when I got out of my habit of writing 10 lines a day, and didn't write anything for months at a time.  But then, sooner or later, I would get back into it and attempt to resume my 10 lines a day.
As I grew slightly older, I found I was able to increase to a page a day.  And summer vacation between 11th and 12th grade, I was able to crank out 4 pages a day. 
I'm not sure why I could do 4 pages when previously 10 lines had been a struggle. My best guess is that I was training for cross-country that summer, and doing 10 mile runs every day, and I think getting a nice long run in during the morning helped to focus me in the afternoon.  For whatever reason.  I should also mention that most of my peers had summer jobs by this age, but I had failed to find employment, so I used my time on the story.
The following summer (between graduating high school and starting college), I worked at a grocery store stocking the shelves.  It was excruciatingly boring work, and I remember I used to occupy my thoughts during the day by thinking about all the great things I would write in my story once I got home.  I promised myself that I would spend my entire evening writing, but then, when I got home, I would usually find myself unable to sit down and write for any length of time.  

And yet, in spite of all that, in spite of how hard it was to force myself to write, and how I often hated doing it, I have fond memories of that story.  I am old enough now that I can see all its faults, but I still remember how excited I was to create it at the time.  I remember how excited I used to get thinking about  the big plot twists I had coming, or the even greater feeling of excitement that I would get when I discovered the big plot twists as I was writing.  Sometimes I would think the story was going in one direction, and then as I was at the keyboard suddenly realize I wanted to take it in another direction.
...of course, it's those very moments--the sudden shifts in plot--that make the thing unreadable to anyone else (among other literary failings).  But I really liked the idea of a story that could take some interesting twists and turns, and I have good memories of it.

While I was writing the story, I had the usual ups and downs in confidence that all writers feel.  At times, I felt that what I was writing wasn't any good, and that nobody else would want to read it, and that I was only writing for my own amusement.  And at other times, I felt certain that I was writing a work of genius, and that if my high school teachers could only see what epic heights I was capable of writing, they would take back all their criticisms of my short stories.  

I never did get any outside opinions on the story, because no one else ever read it at that time, The only one who ever expressed any interest in reading the story was my mother, but I didn't want to let her read it because I knew she wouldn't approve of some of the language/violence.  So all throughout high school, the story was only for my amusement alone.  In 2004, I posted the stories on the blog, but to the best of my knowledge, no one has ever read it.  (I think a couple of people tried, but couldn't get through more than the first couple pages.  And I don't blame them.)
Now that I have the distance of time, and can evaluate my story more objectively, I can see for myself that it's not great.  It's definitely nothing praise worthy.  I was definitely never one of those teenage geniuses who could write an actual novel in their teens.  Nor would I ever have won any writing awards.
But a question I find harder to answer is--is it any good at all? Was there potential?  I'm not sure how good it is comparatively to what's expected at that age.  (Someone who teaches high school English would have to answer that for me.) I wonder (I have always wondered) if there was any sliver of talent in my high school writing--for example, if I had chosen to pursue writing in college instead of to pursue socializing instead, could I eventually have developed into a half-decent fiction writer?  Here, I must admit, that not even the distance of time can give me the objectivity to evaluate what potential I might or might not have had.  I suspect it's pretty bad even by the standards of high schoolers, and that I never had any talent to begin with, but... I'm not sure.

Of course, it's all a moot question really, isn't it?  Because even if you are a genuinely talented writer, the chances of getting a fiction book published are like winning the lottery.  And even then, transitioning from the occasional book to making it as a professional full-time author is even more unlikely. (See this post HERE.)  
This is something no one ever tells you when you're in school, of course.  In school you're told that you can do anything, and that being an author is just as valid a career path as being a doctor or an engineer.  But it's something I gradually figured out in my 20s (mostly just by reading posts and stuff on the Internet.)  
And yet...and yet despite knowing all of this, I still find myself wondering sometimes if I could have made it with just a little bit more self-discipline or practice.  When I catch myself thinking these things, I just have to remind myself that sometimes it's very hard to deprogram yourself from what you were taught in childhood.

But to continue the story of how I abandoned writing to focus on socializing:
I was still working on the story when I started college, and I even continued writing the story during my first week in the college dorms.  But then I soon gave it up.
I was 18, and had been an introvert and a geek all of my life, and I was now at a stage in my life where I was feeling guilty about having been an introvert and a geek all through high school.  (Once again, I acknowledge I am not unique.  I think it is common for people who were introverts or geeks in high school to attempt to re-invent themselves in college.) 
With these new found priorities, I began to retrospectively see the fact that I had spent my evenings in high school staying in and working on my story as something to be ashamed of, rather than proud of.  I should have been out socializing, having adventures, building memories, meeting girls, etc.  (The fact that I had no confidence talking to girls was, I told myself, partly a consequence of the fact that I never attempted to practice it.)
In the college dormitories there was always social interaction going on.  So I ditched my story and tried to concentrate on socializing full time in college.

In the back of my mind, though, I kept thinking about the story.
Without getting into all the convoluted plot twists of my high school story, I stopped writing it just as the main characters were involved in an epic war.  In my mind, however, I had already planned out several stories in advance.  They would win the war, and set up a new regime.  But then (over the course of several more stories), their children would become dissatisfied with the regime, and eventually rebel against them.
I was 18, so stories of youthful rebellion appealed to me.  I had it all planned out in my head, even though I never wrote a word of it.
That unwritten story still occupied my thoughts when I was 22, and one afternoon, when listening to a rock album, I felt the story crystalize in my head.  Except it wouldn't take place in the same fantasy world as my old story.  It would take place in some fictional 19th Century European Country, and it would be about barricades, and revolution, and generational conflict, and religion, and Marx, and Jesus.
The story I was visualizing in my head seemed so great that I felt that I had to write it.  Even though I knew it would pull me away from the socializing that I had decided was my priority.  A story this epic just had to be written.

I had some misgivings about it even at the time, of course.  The biggest misgiving was that I knew myself well enough to know that the most likely outcome for this story was that I was going to get halfway done with it and then give up.  The story was large enough in scope that it would take a lot of time to get through.  (And, indeed, this is what ended up happening.)
Looking back now, the big problem with this story is that it was incredibly pretentious.  How presumptuous to think that I would have anything intelligent to say about Jesus or Marx?  (Indeed, this level of pretentiousness is probably more excusable at 18 than at 22.  In other words, I was probably at an age where I should have known better.  Or at least I would have been if I had been anyone else.  But I have always been a bit slow to mature, and have always been slightly immature for my age.)
But at the time, this was only a minor concern of mine.  It crossed my mind a few times as I wrote, but I preferred to allow my feelings of optimism and enthusiasm wash the doubts away. 

As far as memory serves, I actually made good progress on this story.  No more forcing myself to write a meager 10 lines a day--now I was writing for longer periods and more frequently.  (I was often on a computer writing this story, and when I was away from a computer I was working on it in a notebook.)

And this story, unlike my high school stories, was not just going to sit unread on my computer.  This story I had ambitions for.
Exactly what those ambitions were varied from day to day.  Some days, I thought it would be enough just to share this story with friends and family.  It might not be good for publication, but it would still be an epic story that would not disappoint those I shared it with.
But on other days, I was sure I was writing something that could be published.  And not only published, but something that could make me famous--something that could become a new classic.
I've since posted that story here: http://workingtittle.blogspot.com/

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

Chapter 55: Lucius the Cat

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“We’ve been walking around in circles all day,” complained Starrof.

“The frog king doesn’t know where he is going,” said Klangor.

“Quit calling me the frog king,” said King Carlyle.  “I’m still the same man I was, I’m just in a frog’s body.”

John, who was walking some ways behind King Carlyle, silently mouthed the sentence he had just heard, while he debated with himself whether or not it made sense.  But he decided not to say anything to King Carlyle.

“Your majesty, if I may, I don’t know this part of the forest as well as Midor, but I believe we are heading in the wrong direction,” Jacob the frog said.  “I think the land of the fairies is to the West of here.”

“Of course it’s to the West of here,” King Carlyle said.  “But we can’t just walk in a straight line through the thickest part of the forest underbrush.  We’ve got to find the path.”

“Us small animals generally try to stay off of the path,” said Benjamin Mouse.  “It’s too dangerous.”

“It’s not dangerous,” said King Carlyle.  “All the animals know the law of the forest.  No one will hurt us.”

“Your majesty,” said John, “I know I’m new to these forests, but in my short time travelling with Jacob and Benjamin, we’ve been attacked numerous times by larger animals.”

“Hmph.  Well you shouldn’t have been.  It’s against the laws of the forest.”

Just at that moment, as they were climbing over the roots of a tree, they noticed a cat was on the other side of the tree looking down at them.

“Oh, hello good sir,” said King Carlyle to the cat.  “Could you direct us?  Which is the quickest way to get to the land of the fairies?”

The cat was looking at them with fascinated green eyes.  The eyes narrowed, and the cat moved slowly forward.

“It’s Lucius, the cat,” yelled Benjamin.  “There are rumors about him.”

“We should run,” said Jacob.

The cat darted forward and picked up King Carlyle in its jaws.  Benjamin and John both gave out a yell of terror.  Starrof and Klangor both started laughing.

“Put me down, you big bully!” yelled King Carlyle.  “I do not consent to being carried like this.  Put me down.”

The cat turned to run away.

“What’s he doing?” yelled John.

“He probably wants to bring King Carlyle to somewhere isolated so he can eat him in peace,” said Jacob.

“Put him down!” yelled John.  “Bring him back!”

The cat was already off and running, and there was no way that John or Jacob or Benjamin could catch him.

...but the rabbits!  The rabbits just might be able to catch up to the cat. 

John jumped on the back of Starroff.  “Quick, follow that cat!” he yelled.

“Get off my back, human!” Starroff growled.  (If a rabbit can be said to growl.)  

“We do not concern ourselves with your King,” said Klangor.  “Whether he is eaten or not is all the same to us.”

“What! What do you mean?  Why are you even traveling with us then?” John cried out in frustration.

“For safety,” answered Staroff.

“And protection,” said Klangor.

“But, you can’t get our protection unless you also help us,” said John.

“We believe that we can,” said Klangor.

“If we don’t rescue King Carlyle, this group isn’t going to travel anywhere,” said John.  “Quick, run while there’s still time.  Run as fast as you can.  You’re rabbits.  You should be able to keep up with the cat.”

Now, after all this squabbling, Lucius the Cat had gotten quite a head start.  But when the dragons did finally decide to run, their rabbit legs and bodies were able to speed through the forest.  And, in fact, once they finally got started running, they discovered that they enjoyed finally stretching their legs, and they started running faster and faster, enjoying the feeling of speed and exertion that running brought.  It was almost like being dragons again and flying.  They zoomed across grass and zipped around trees, and jumped over logs.

Now, it’s very difficult to chase someone in the forest, because the forest is so full of excellent hiding places.  And no one knows this better than a cat, who kept trying to sneak behind bushes or hide in shadows.  But King Carlyle, who was struggling to get out of the cat’s jaws, kept yelling the whole time.  “Put me down, you big beast!  I demand to be set at my liberty!  Ouch! Your teeth are too sharp!  Less pressure on the jaw!  My frog’s skin is very soft, you know!”  And this constant yelling made it difficult for the cat to fully hide himself.

Benjamin Mouse and Jacob Frog (who were travelling some ways behind, but were trying to keep up) both knew enough about the ways of the forest to know that the cat probably wouldn’t kill King Carlyle until it was safely in a hiding place.  It wouldn’t want to take the risk of being seen to violate the law of the forest--especially it wouldn’t want to take the risk of being seen by animals big enough to do something about it.  So for the moment, King Carlyle was allowed to yell out his complaints, even though his soft skin was slightly uncomfortable next to the cat’s sharp teeth.

Lucius the cat ran towards one of the rivers, where the water flowed noisily over some rapids.  Lucius, although he hated getting wet, thought that jumping across the stones was the best way to escape his pursuers.  The stones were positioned in the river so that it was possible to leap from one to another, and just possibly it would have been possible to get across to the other side.  Lucius made a jump and managed to land on the first stone without dropping King Carlyle.  He centered himself on the stone, and prepared himself for the next jump.

Klangor and Starrof arrived at the rapids shortly after Lucius.  John was still on the back of  Starrof.  “Quick, after that cat!” John shouted.  “Jump onto that rock!”

“In these rabbit bodies?” asked Starrof incredulously.

“We’d drown in an instant,” insisted Klangor.

“A dragon fears nothing, or so it is said,” John said.  “Quick, follow that cat!”

“A dragon fears no honorable death,” said Starrof.  “Drowning is dishonorable.”

Well they were still arguing, Lucius the cat had managed to leap to the next two stones.  He was halfway across the rapids by now.  But on the third jump, Lucius faltered and fell into the white water below.  He let out a cry of outrage and anger at getting plunged into the cold  water. “Raoow!”  And in the process of uttering his cry, King Carlyle was dropped into the rapids.

Starrof and Klangor immediately howled with laughter again, as they watched the soaking wet miserable cat get carried away downstream by the rapids

“King Carlyle!” John yelled out, and he dismounted Starrof and was about to jump into the rapids himself, when he was stopped by Jacob the frog (who had caught up to them by now).  “I’ll go,” Jacob said.  “I’m a frog, and can swim.  You’d drown in an instant.”

“The water is too rough for a frog,” said John.  “You could be smashed against the rocks.”

“I’d still stand a better chance than you,” said Jacob, and in he jumped

Benjamin the mouse, who had also caught up by this time, and John ran along the side of the river, yelling for King Carlyle or Jacob.  But all they could see was the white churning water, and they couldn’t see either of the frogs.

Thursday, August 19, 2021

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Sunday, August 15, 2021

Chapter 54: Vivian Fights Catherine

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Vivian arrived back at the castle.  She took a deep breath before going in.  She practiced.  She formed the balls of energy in her hands.  It was almost effortless now.  Getting them to shoot out, that was the tricky part.  That part needed a yell.  But that was okay. She could yell when the time came.

She entered the castle, and strode towards the throne room to meet Catherine.

Catherine was talking to Talon in the throne room.  She looked different, Vivian noticed.  Her transformation was almost completed now.  She looked younger--almost like she had once looked when she was 19.

“Vivian, how nice to see you again,” Catherine said.

Vivian was so shocked by Catherine’s young appearance that she almost forgot her purpose.  “Catherine?  But how?  You look so young.”

“Oh, it’s nice of you to notice, dear.  Nothing a little magic couldn’t fix up.  I’ve been trying to revert to the age I was when I first learned to control my magical powers.  It has sentimental attachment for me.  You know how it is.”

“Catherine, I’ve come to take the throne back.”

“Take it back?  Take it back for who?  My dear, you know I am the rightful Queen, and it is your father that was the usurper.  And you know I’ve already named you my heir, so there’s no need for you to take anything back.”

The balls of energy were forming on Vivian’s hands.  “This is your last warning,” she said.

“Ah,” said Catherine, noticing the balls of electricity forming.  “You’ve come to do what your father never could do.  You’ve come to fight magic with magic.”

“I don’t want to hurt you,” said Vivian, although her tone was threatening.

“Don’t tell lies,” said Catherine.  “You’ve been fantasizing about hurting me all week.”

Vivian yelled, and the energy pulsed from her hand and travelled toward Catherine.  Catherine spoke softly and waved her hand in an almost dismissive way, and the energy beam dissipated before it could touch her.  “Not bad,” said Catherine.  “That would have knocked the goblin army off their feet I’m sure.”

Vivian yelled again, but louder this time.  The energy pulsated from her in a stronger form.  Catherine spoke again and waved her hand.  It was noticeable that Catherine was also speaking louder, and waving more energetically.  “Good,” said Catherine.  “You almost had me with that one.”

Vivian yelled a third time, and this time her yell was almost a shriek.  The energy burst from her to fill the whole room.  Both Talon and Catherine quickly chanted spells and waved their arms to dissipate the energy.  

Catherine’s eyes lit up and she started walking towards Vivian excitedly.  “What power!” she said excitedly.  “I was wondering why you came to challenge me.  Why would Vivian think she can defeat me when she hasn’t had any training, I asked myself.  But now I can see it.  You’re stronger than me.  You’ve got more power than I do, and you know it.  That’s why you thought you could defeat me.  But all you have is raw power at this point.  You can’t control it.  But if you could combine your raw power with even just a little bit of training, you could be more powerful than I or Talon could ever be.  You could be more powerful than all of the sorcerers and magicians in the whole forest.”

“I don’t want your help,” Vivian said.

“I know, I know.  I know you don’t like being in the position where you need my help.  But, let’s face it, you need my help.”

“I don’t need anything from you,” Vivian said, and the balls of energy began to form again in her hand.

“Calm down and think about this logically,” said Catherine.  “You want to undo my spells, but you don’t know how to.  Your father and your mother are still frogs.  Your husband is 3 inches tall.  I know you're angry at me, and I don’t blame you.  But I can help you make it all better. I can teach you how to undo those spells.”

“Why don’t you just undo the spells yourself.”

“You know why.  Because we’re bargaining right now.  You want to undo my spells, and I want to teach you magic.  That’s the bargain.  Sounds like a pretty good deal to you, no?  I’m not even sure why I’m making this deal.  What do I get out of it?” Catherine asked herself with a questioning look up at the ceiling.  Vivian was still standing there, angry.  So Catherine softened her tone.  “Let’s start with the simple ones.  Your mother is still in her bedroom right now stuck as a frog.  You want to turn her back into a human again, don’t you?  I can teach you how to undo the spell.”

“Alright,” said Vivian.  “It’s a deal.”

“Good girl,” said Catherine.  “I knew you’d come around.  Now, first let me teach you the spell that transforms anyone into a frog.  It’s a basic transformation spell, and you just substitute in a frog for the object.  And then because we want to transform your mother, we have to use a third person singular feminine noun in the nominative case, and make sure the verb agrees with this.  And you have to do all of this in the ancient runic tongue.”

“The what?”

“It’s the language of the ancient peoples of the forest.  I can’t teach you all of it right now, but it’s important that you learn the words for this spell.  Talon, do you have a piece of paper?”

“I believe it’s traditional to practice the spoken form first,” said Talon.  “You want to make sure she doesn’t mispronounce it before you show her how to write it.”

“Everybody’s a pedant,” said Catherine.  “Very well, we will do the pronunciation first.  But Vivian, my dear, please don’t say the complete spell outloud until you’re ready to use it.”

“Why should I trust you?” asked Vivian.  “How do I know you won’t give me a spell to kill my mother, instead of changing her back.”

“Well, for one thing,” said Catherine, “Clearly if I wanted your mother Benevois dead, she would be dead already.  But let’s not argue the rationality of it too much.  That’s not the point.  The point is, once you master a spell, you’ll be able to feel for yourself what it can and can’t do.”

“What do you mean?”
“I can’t explain it fully.  No one can.  But when people who are magically gifted have mastered a spell, they’ll be able to feel what it can and can’t do.  You don’t have to trust me, you’ll just trust your own feelings.”

“Alright,” said Vivian.  “I’m ready.  Teach me.”

“Very good.  Now, I’m going to teach you the basic form of the verb first.  We’ll deal with the conjugations later.  Are you ready? Repeat after me.”